Log 4

 

Chris and Frank were actually two years apart. In the latter part of the story, it revealed that they were brothers that being separated for years. Frank was reluctant to tell Chris this astonishing truth that would drive him insane. 

After knowing this fact, I went back to see their conversations and interactions. Each of the actions they did became more reasonable, each of the emotions they expressed became more powerful, which were totally different from the first view. 

The page I selected mainly talked about they gobbled the chewy seaweeds and awful barnacles while talking beside the faint light made by fire. They were having a really, really sweet conversation. The reason why I chose this page is because that I also have a brother. However, unlike Chris and Frank, my brother and I are a decade apart, which is an enormous age gap. He has finished his military service and started working while I am still studying in college. Different from them, quarreling and sharing happiness together. My brother and I barely talk, we even do not often share our lives with each other. Consequently, seeing the interactions between Chris and Frank made me a little bit envious and longed for such brotherly relationship, since these are the things we failed to succeed. But it does not mean that we do not love each other, each of us just has no clues where to start a conversation. We always stare at each other and end up the whole conversations abruptly and awkwardly. For instance, once, I stood in front of him, wanting to tell him a joyous news. However, tons of thoughts stuff my brain like tangles of vines, which is absolutely suffering. Eventually, the only word that came out of my mouth was "Hi!", and my brother responded with "Hello.", which was a total disaster. As a consequence, I turned to my father to ask him to convey messages for me. To me, he is a mature and independent being. To me, he runs at the head of the course all the time while I desperately chase after him.  He takes everything seriously, striving to earn perfect results. This is the characteristic that makes him so precious and irreplaceable. I love him. I really do. But it is hard for me to step across the gap and to express my feelings toward him. Before, I would be sticking to the status quo, hoping my brother could sense my emotions. After finishing this book, I embarked on changing the way we interacting with each other. I just shared him a delightful article that made me burst into laugh with him one day ago. I hope it is a good beginning!